There is a future that is wanting to happen, a possibility that wants to be fulfilled. It’s not the only future. It’s not the only possibility. But it’s the one I’m creating and I’d like to share it with you.
I’ve been a personal trainer for 3 years. I’ve been a “girl who works out” for much longer. I’ve also been a person who tries to integrate her spirituality into her life on a daily basis, sometimes successfully, sometimes not so much. I have finally surrendered to the idea that I am a spiritual person, and I finally really like that about myself! I have tried many things to connect with a Higher Power, or my Higher Self, during the last couple of decades. Psychedelic drugs, Ouija boards, sweatlodges, churches, books, teachers, rituals, whatever. I’ve now decided a few things. 1: It doesn’t matter what phone I use, so long as I make the call. 2: If my intention is to connect, I’ll connect, and it is immaterial what I’m doing when I’m connecting. 3: If 1 and 2 are true, I should just do what I like!
It turns out I really like yoga. It’s a nice change of pace from my LIFE, and the type of training I’ve done in the gym for the last 14 years. It balances out my leg muscles from running. It re-aligns my shoulders. It reminds me I have a core that’s not just made up of 4 different muscle groups. And it feels like prayer.
As I’ve learned about myself, the best motivation to get me to do anything is to do it for someone else. I got up early every Sunday morning in Portland to cook breakfast for my girlfriends. I work the 12 steps harder when I am sponsoring someone. I got candidated as a Landmark Introduction Leader because I wanted to coach the next program. I turned myself inside out over & over & over again as a Landmark Staff Member, in order to be a clearing for others to fulfill their dreams with our education. I work out more than you because I can’t coach you not to sell out when I’m training you, if I haven’t done my cardio that week. I eat well & take care of my body because maybe one day I’ll decide to grow a baby in here. The somewhat-hard-to-accept truth about me is that unless there is service to other people involved (even those I haven’t met yet) I won’t get out of bed. Now, while this can be frustrating beyond belief, it also gives me a certain advantage to know it.
Inside of knowing all of that, and inside of my commitment to continue to grow and expand as a person, I’ve created this future called “Being a Yoga Teacher”. While at this point I only know a fraction of what I think that will look like, I’m wholly inspired and lit up by it.
I have loved the last few years of being a trainer, coach, confidant and keeper-of-the-measurements-of-which-we-do-not-speak. ;) And I’m so so so clear that I couldn’t have even gotten this far without YOU. Those of you who coached me about starting my own business, those of you who have trusted me enough to train with me, those of you who supported me when I was too proud to get another job and needed a couch to sleep on. Those of you who cheered me on when I competed, those of you who just told me it was cool, who referred people to me, who spoke or thought well of me, as a trainer – you may never know the contribution you’ve been and I know that who I am today I am because of your listening and holding of that space.
I’m so in love with personal training, and watching people reach goals that they were previously resigned about, watching people lose weight, get off medications, become more active and healthy and vital. I love that I get to be a part of that. Yoga teacher training is going to open up so many doors to create even more miracles and I can’t wait!
If you’re inspired by this, or want to be a part of it in a very real way, I ask that you contribute anything you can to the cost of my training. It’s more than I can come up with on my own, so I’m calling on my community. Here are the ways that you can do that:
Donate via PayPal – my email address is listed as michelle@yogamonkeys.net or 408-649-4777
Donate via Amazon Payments – michelle@bodybymichelle.net or 408-649-4777
Send via Snail Mail – 4670 Clarendon Drive, San Jose CA, 95129
Buy training sessions now! Contact me for information about pricing and scheduling.
Literally, even $20 will make a difference, so please consider it.
In any case, thank you for reading, listening, loving me, and standing for the future being fulfilled.
Oh! And if you want to follow my adventures along the way, you can check out my yoga blog at www.yogamonkeys.net/blog.
Namaste!